not much action on the site lately, wanted to share a story. I graduated CR back in 1989 in NYC , been in FL last 26 years. Recently one of my rental houses was turned into a grow House, during my dealing with the cleanup I encountered much cannabis smell, plus found large bags full of it. (immediately turned into the local police or destroyed) , if not for God's power and being taught to obey (as in matt 28:20) from Cr I may have used during this situation. Thanks to the NYC CR ministry I am still standing. I have many photos of the house, hopefully my experience can helps others somehow.
To recover, I must be willing to make hard choices. I must accept my role in my addiction, not shifting the blame. I willingly abused drugs and alcohol. I must now be ready to do whatever it takes to totally recover.
No one can want my recovery more than me. Attempts to help me will prove futile if I am unwilling to change. The power to change comes from God but the willingness must be mine. With my willingness and God’s Power, I will recover.
I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. (Romans 7:18 NIV)