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What CR Means To Me Editor May 19 : 22:38
My name is Robyn Soerries. My name is Robyn Soerries. I was baptized into Christ in the San Diego Church of Christ in April, 2000. I quit smoking cigarettes one week prior to being baptized having smoked for 15 years. I had moved to California from Wichita, Kansas to get away from my life of drugs. I was a daily user of marijuana and also used cocaine weekly; daily if I could get it. I was too prideful to admit I needed help so I moved, thinking that if I didn't have any drug contacts, I would be forced to quit. This worked for my cocaine habit but I found marijuana in California quite easily.
I believed I was doing right in reaching out to a friend who asked me to get high with her. She said, "Well if this church doesn't control you and debauchery, as you call it, is over-indulgence, then getting high this one time won't hurt, right?" I had read a scripture that morning: In some strange way i convinced myself that i was doing right by getting high with her.The consequences for my one discretion were enormous! I lost an amazing job...(a promotion-from salesperson to sales manager) due to a drug test. I failed the test not due to having drugs in my system but because I continued my deceitfulness by purchasing a cover up product which was detected in the test. I actually would have tested negative due to the small amount I smoked. My guilt overcame me and was evident. The good news of all this was that it was now evident how much I needed CR. Before this incident I would still have been too prideful and self-confident to go. And even in the first few groups, I maintained that i did not have a problem with alcohol at all; it was not my drug of choice. I did graduate CR in Denver. I now feel strongly that graduating CR was the only reason for my being in Denver. Had I not graduated CR before moving back here to Wichita I may have been easily persuaded to meet my old friends out for a drink...which eventually could have led me back into my old ways. I am eternally grateful to the CR ministry and pray that I may help to lead it some day here in Wichita. The following is a speech i gave at graduation in Denver.
I compromise no more! I have been given the tools to conquer my addictions; and help others to do the same. I am still powerless over them and only through the grace and strength of our Lord shall I succeed. It is through His word that I am able to quench my new thirst. Without Him I am helpless, weak, and totally ineffectual. CR has helped me to see more clearly the person I was, the person I became, and the person who was in denial of who I could yet become.
I now agree that although drinking is certainly permitted, those of us who are addicts need to say no because the result may not be beneficial. Additionally, we know that Satan can use areas in which we've been particularly vulnerable in the past to lure us back into sin. We know that we must absolutely avoid certain people, places and things.
Therefore, if you are out to dinner with a CR graduate, please refrain from ordering wine or other alcoholic drinks. If a CR graduate is coming to your house to baby-sit; please put away any alcohol you may have in the house before they arrive. To my fellow grads, remember, we must:
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